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SURFING UNDER THE SUNSET SKIES
Monday, June 27, 2005

i finally manage to catch a bus t0 get my ass to piano lesson today.
such an achievement!
its like all along i always wake up at 1.10pm. so i've got to rush like mad and...
end up taking cab all the times. so yes isnt it an achievement!
but actually its jiahao phone call that woke me up at 12.30! ask me to meet for dota.
hahahaha so piano was alright. my progress is still slow. i need a piano soon!
so rush cab down to katong. play from 3 to half past 7. even miss my tuition. lol.
karchun, jiahao and jason went to get their hair cut.
erwin and eddie went home for dinner. thus end up having dinner with bson and ren an.
got my hair dye black. is damn black now. felt weird.

anyhow is 3.06 am now. i should wake up 3 and a half hour later for school.
not at this time! i think its my body clock.
cant get back to sleep! damn irritating!

i use to think that whenever we quarrel or stuff didnt turn out well,
it was always my fault! dont ask me why cause even if sometime it isnt,
it will still be deem as because of me. it has sub-consiously become always me.
perhaps its really your randomness. i dont know.
to me its like you are contradicting yourself.
the worst part, it makes me feel like a fool.
yes we do share enjoyable times together. whats the point?
its only once in a month. then you'll suddenly ignore me and throw some blame on me.
then i'll have to make it up to you. YES ITS A ROUTINE.
you said you hate routine but all along you keep creating that cycle.
you say i flirt? you say i always find trouble with your "friends"?
you say i did not stand up for you?
for those who are really close to me will know that i didnt mess around.
i always, even till now! still stand up for you.
and you know what its never i go find trouble even i know who is the guy.
i swear i didnt! they come and find fault, you side them! what the fuck.
random? so you chose to help him? hail your random then!
the whole world start to point finger on me.
it was always why you cannot treat siwei better? why!?
do you even know that? you know shit.
you ask me to sms you but you take at least 5 hours to reply.
you ask me to call you but you sometime dont pick up the phone.
you ask me to wait for you after school but you left me for your friends.
you ask me to be truthful but you lie to me.
you ask me to meet you after tuition, i push away all my meeting and stuff,
rush over, just to spend 5-15 pathetic minutes with you.
what more have you ask for that i didnt do and you didnt fail to play me out?

yes i do still love you alot. whats the point.
you cheated on me...

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